When Life throws you lemons Make Lemonade!!!!

I have not blogged in so long, my life has been sooo busy.
My oldest Alyssa just graduated Highschool.
Isabella has been losing her service hours.
And Gabriella, who has ADHD. her medication isn't working anymore.
I found out that a screw from my neck surgery 9 years ago, is coming out.
And the pain in my neck and back 
Needless to say I am trying everything to get everyone through all of it.
I keep telling myself, God is preparing you for change for a reason.
I trully believe that.
I just wish he would get on with it already.

LOVING the IPAD for Bella!!!!!

I received an IPAD for my birthday. And of course I used the excuse that I wanted it for Bella. Well I really wanted it for myself and new Bella would get use out of it.
But can I tell you she is loving it. and her speech therapist , Lisa, who spoke at the conference in Orlando, gave me a list of apps.
WOW can I just say that!!!
She knows so many things that I was unaware of because she can't always say it.
She speaks in 3-4 word sentences. And not always clear to everyone.
But using the touch screen is just amazing. But I have to tell her to tap slowly.
The tracing app is really working for her. She dosn't write, has been tracing letters for years. But using her finger is soooo much easier than a pencil. And she is more focused and less distracted.
She dosn't verbally count to 20 but guess what she knows her numbers even past 20, so who cares if she can't count continuosly to 20.
Also, she dosnt' say her alphabet continuously, but KNOWS every letter in the alphabet. And I have been telling her teachers this since she was 5.
I could go on and on.
When I get home I will post the apps Bella is using now.
And if anyone wants the list just email me.
All I can say is the IPAD is a great resourse for our kids, and technically it does belong to BELLA!!!!

I am truly Blessed!!!!!!!!!!!

I haven't blogged in a while. Too much has happened in the last few weeks.
My daughter Gabriella's bird died. My birthday was on Oct. 22, and on Monday Oct. 25, I found out my Dad had died and was dead for almost a week and no one noticed.
My Dad lives in NJ and my sister Jenn just moved down to Florida in July.
We tried to get my Dad down here last October since he retired then. And Jenn was living in NJ at the time and he did't want to leave her.
The guilt of not pressuring him to come and stay with us will always be with me.
And my sister has guilt for leaving NJ and not making him come with her.
I have to say though you truly find out who your friends and family are in a time like this and I am trully greatful for them. And also very  surprised at the people who were not there for us. But I know people have their own lives.
My mother-in-law told me the other day that I have a big heart even though I have sooo much going on in my life I stop what I am doing to be there for others and that I don't get the same in return.
But didn't God teach us to give is better than to receive. so I am not going to stop being who I am, and not pass judgement on others, ( even if others pass judgement on me) that is God's JOB!!!!
So I just want to say, DAD we miss you every day. And I hope you have your cigarettes and liquor in Heaven. LOL
And thank you GOD for the people in my life who were there for Jenn and I in this difficult time.
WE ARE TRULLY BLESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A day with Charity and Sophie

Spent the day today with Charity and Sophie and I feel so blessed they came into my life. I couldn't even imagine them not being in my life and forgot what it was like when they weren't.
I trully believe God has crossed our paths for a reason. Our beautiful special girls. And who would of expected to have such a good friend. I don't know what I would do without them. And the bond I feel with Sophie is incredible. She has my heart. I look forward to our journeys together. I love you both soooo much.

Watching a movie with my Bella

I am watching a movie with Bella. This is our second movie. The first one was Barnie at the zoo. Yes she still loves Barnie at 14. I am tired of Barnie but she learns from it and just smiles and enjoys it. And I enjoy watching her watch it. While she watches it she has her iPod on listening to her favorite person in the world " Justin Bieber".
I trully am the happiest person when watching my Bella. She truly understands enjoyment and enthusiasm. And being in the moment. I believe she teaches me more everyday than I teach her.

My inspiration my Bella Boo

Today I remebered why Bella is in my life.
LOVE
pure and simple
unconditional LOVE.
We were put on this earth to love eachother.
Why does it take a special abilty child to remind us of this.

Today I spent my first time at Janice's house celebrating Yom Kipur. I hope I spelled it right. And I was nervous bringing Bella there. Would she act up or behave badly. But instedad as usual she really enjoyed herself. As did my other 2 girls. She was really one of the kids tonight. And she always amazes me on how she really is in the moment. Not worried about yesterday. And dosnt think about tommorow. Just right now. We all need to learn from her. Being in the present moment.